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May. 7th, 2007

Haven't been around much but I have been reading journals. I've been so busy with graduation, then trying to put life back to normal Sunday, plus the race and I wanted to enjoy the weather. And now I need to shower and go to bed but I wanted to update quickly.

     Friday was hard. As I posted earlier, it was alot of mixed emotions. But we got all our errands done in time for me to get to WildCare at 5 and help out a bit before I headed to Lenny's for dinner. Suprisingly, Jenny showed up, but had to leave before we went to the ceremony to "go to work". She didn't show up there but that's not the point of the story. So off we all headed to the Auditorium. It was nice, the speaker was kinda like, me in 30 years (I hope) and it was kinda fun, execpt for the drunk SPEA students..... but that lasted through the weekend. Photo time!

Lunch at Jiffy Treat Friday. I was cranky and spelled my name on my corndog just incase someone wanted to take it from me.

Me and my SPEA lifeline, Stephanie, my advisor, therapist and friend. I'm going to miss her soooooo much and am so glad she beat the hell out of her cancer.


Saturday came WAY to earily. Mom made rolls and I booked it outta here at 8. I hate mornings, and mornings in the fieldhouse remind me of high school track and Marching Hundred. But I found Sword at the back with the rest of SPEA and we sat down and complained about the rest of our stupid school. I swear, how drunk were they? Anyway...we marched in and I didn't get to sit on the flood but oh well. Photo time!!!

The band. Mevans, James, Graham, Matt, Derrick, Ross and other former Hundred members were there so they got a lot of cheering from 2 in the SPEA section. ;) 

Me in my cap and gown at the ceremony. 

Sword and I at graduation. haha We did it and in the same school! Totally unplanned but I'm so glad it ended up that way.

Me again in my cap and tassel having dinner at the Farifax Inn Saturday night. Yes, that is a Star Wars shirt. The locals thought I was nuts. ;) And I pretty much am. 

And that was graduation weekend.

Ok I'm going to go shower. I finally watched the new eppy of Supernatural tonight and let me say, I had to try HARD not to cry. I'm glad I didn't watch it Thursday because I would have just bawled. I might type a better response but honestly, it was just way to good. Why haven't I watched this show from the start? At least I did get to see the first season and some of the second. I'm waiting to reruns this summer while Grey's is also in reruns because the SN ones will be new to me. 

Enough rambling. I have a migrane and need a bath. And the mani/pedi treat was fab today. Plus I'm starting a birthstone quilt this summer (that's my plan) since mom is off work tomorrow.



May. 4th, 2007

Today has it's ups and downs. Had a sad call to Nicole Daly. She cannot come because she is camping with her son, taking on the role Mark left. She says they have their ups and downs daily and that Liam has kinda gone nutso. He wants to spend some time here this summer with dad. We're thinking we'll invite them both while Claire is gone to her 6 week ballet camp for the weekend. They can stay at the condo at the lake, Liam, Dad and I can go caving or to the lake or something boy-ish and mom and Nicole and I can do girly stuff. Anything to help. She sent me a card for graduation and I feel totally guilty about the amount she sent. Like, horrid. You can be sure that THAT is going to Ireland and going to a drink or two. Or three. ;) 

And our friends in Lawrenceville and our friend, Frank, was in a car accident last night. He's 85 and pulled out in front of someone. No broken bones but he is 85 so they are keeping him in the hospital.

Then the Jenny drama kept up and I was just so stressed out about tonight and tomorrow I was catty and bitchy all day. Then I got my cake, got to unloading stuff next door and found a new nest of Killdeer eggs on Mr.C's driveway. So I got to play with mama and daddy Deer and their eggs and feel like it was all going to be ok. I got to go to WildCare and help medicate 4 opossum joeys and play with them a bit. We also got 3 tiny joeys while I was trying to leave. It really gave me 45 minutes to calm down and do what my passion is, animal care, which was a point of our speaker tonight at the SPEA thing.

So, that's one thing down this weekend. I didn't trip, I got to meet the Dean and see Stephanie and get my picture taken with her. I tried really hard to to cry when I hugged her. Between talking with Nicole, hearing about Frank and being a general ass to everyone today I was feeling pretty dumb because I have all this great stuff going on in my life right now and that I still have my health and family and close friends that are there to support me in the next few months as I try to transition from kid to true adult. I may complain and say I hate my life but in the end I'm fairly content. Yes, there are things I would change, but they are things that are in my power to change, I just need to put my mind to it.

On the even of my graduation (from SPEA at least I have all my SPEA credits done) I want to thank each and everyone of you from the bottom of my bleeding heart for being there for me. Even if you have only been here a few weeks, months or YEARS I feel a close connection to everyone of you and consider you all my friends, even though the only thing that connects us is this crazy expirement called Livejournal. Thank you all for supporting me, crying with me, laughing with me (or at me) and generally being kick ass friends. 

Once I get some sleep and things calm down I'll write more thank yous but I gotta be up and at 'em tomorrow morning (Starbucks or Copper Cup is getting a visit tomorrow around 8). Think of me around 10 Indiana time as I'll be taking the first step in the rest of my life. :)



Not any more

This weekend is MY weekend. Not my sisters. I am NOT playing the "Where is your sister?" game with friends and relatives (if they even COME apparently I'm not worth driving anywhere for). She's a looser who wanted to hang out with her drunk ass, looser friends rather than celebrate her sister's graduation from college. 

Or if she does show up, she'll eat the food, probably take some with her for her "friends", then leave just as soon as she shows, after mooching money off of mom or Aunt Lynn or both

I don't have the energy or mental stability to deal with her shit right now. I have to take care of myself and my weekend first. Jennifer is so far down the list I can't even see her.

Maybe I'm just at the final stress limit before I just explode all over the place. I hate to be the diva bitch but I've struggled 5 years to get this weekend and right now, I'm not even sure if I want it.


My pore strips smell fruity

Lunch with Sword was fab. as usual. I now remember why we are BFF. Drove on out and stood in line for our cap and gown. I quickly put my cap on as we rode back to my car downtown and yelled I'm graduating loud enough so people could hear me. But I'm just like that. Got some pore strips from Wal-Mart and walked around trying to decide what to put on my cap. I ditched the ribbon idea (the best they had was I <3 my pet, which is true but kinda lame) got some tacky glue and a small Capt. Jack Sparrow figurine (none of the small Star Wars figures were any good) with Cotton and Gibbs and Marty. I might just put on Jack, right behind the button on the cap. hehe Expect pictures soon. :)

Now I HAVE to go study for my final at 5 and wait for the pore strips to dry. 

This is why I'm hot. 

Also got a $3 Star Wars shirt at Greetings to take to Ireland to celebrate the release of Sacrifice. *dork*



I don't fight

I don't argue
I just hit that bitch with a bottle.

Pretty much that is all I have to share. Lunch with teh Sword tomorrow, cap and gown pick up, final then I'm free for a while. 


Hit that bitch with a bottle watch her head hit the floor.

I love this song. And "This Is Why I'm Hot". *jams* 

Oh and does anyone else think that "This is why I'm hot" needs to be on a Deany icon? Just a thought. *totally Dean's theme song*

We'll ICU security to. 

It just keeps coming. *giggle and jam*

He can't keep them a secret and gives them before they are due. 

I get home from work, pooped, hungry and crampy. All I want to do is eat pizza and Oreo's and watch TV. Dad starts on me again about the digi cam Jenny has. Where is it? When did I last see it? I just want to eat my pizza, let the fat girl eat her pizza. When I answer that I am tired of fighting with Jenny over the camera he says "Go down and get the bag by my bed then." It's a new black camera from Radio Shack. It's fantastic and easy to use. So I WILL have a camera for graduation and Ireland after all. 

I love my family. For all the greif they give me, they really do have my back. 

Ok I'm gonna go watch TV and shower and play with my new toy.



I just want a vacation. I'm so drained, and the fact that Aunt Flo decided to come yesterday during the yard sale doesn't help. So I'll make this short. 

Aida: It started pretty bad singing wise but got better as it went along. The props were kinda high school-y for a big time production but I'm glad I got to go. 

Yard Sale- Execpt for the above mentioned it was great. I think we did a lot of business, sold most of the heavy stuff and I got to spend about 2 hours holding a 3 1/2 week old baby coyote. Her mom and sibling had been intentionally hit by a car and someone found her Friday by them mourning. You could see in her eyes she was very sad but we fed her and eventually she fell asleep on me. She also threw up a bit on me but it was to cute to be mad.

Banquet- So aside from someone telling me it started at 6:15, when it started at 5:45 I think it was ok. I left my house at 5:45 in a panic over SGT's e-mail saying it was starting. Kinda wish that e-mail had gone out, I don't know, Friday........ but it's over now. I came home to change for the after party, sat down on my bedto put my jeans on and promptly fell asleep, jeans half on. So, no after party for me, which is a good thing I guess.

Well I feel like utter crap. The cramps are giving me hell right now, CiCi is inside raising cain (thanks Dad) and I have to work at 2-ish. But I have Monday and Tuesday off from everything to study.

And by this time next week I'll have walked in my last graduation ceremony ever. But I won't think about that now.


Every story, tale or memoir
Every saga or romance
Whether true or fabricated
Whether planned or happenstance

Whether sweeping through the ages
Casting centuries aside
Or a hurried brief recital
Just a thirty-minute ride

Whether bright or melancholy
Rough and ready, finely spun
Whether with a thousand players
Or a lonely cast of one

Every story, new or ancient
Bagatelle or work of art
All are tales of human failing
All are tales of love at heart

This is the story
Of a love that flourished
In a time of hate

Of lovers no tyranny could separate
Love set into motion on the Nile's shore
Destiny ignited by an act of war

Egypt saw the mighty river as its very heart and soul
Source of life for all her people
That only Egypt could control
Destruction of her southern neighbor justified
Nubia exploited, left with little more than pride

I've waited 7 years for tonight. 


Apr. 27th, 2007

I am suffering from a Britney Spears like meltdown, sans babies, drugs and a looser ex. 

Luckily there isn't an electric razor in the house to shave off all my hair.

But I'm not ready for tomorrow. The paper isn't done and I have no energy left to do much other than sit and stare at a wall and drool.


Bandwagon's full, please, catch another

This NGO class is killing me. I am so stressed about getting it done and I think my professor hates me. I slept almost all day, execpt for studying this morning and taking my Stats test at 4 and turning in the book for $40. I should have been working on this bloody paper, not to mention the one due on Friday I have barely started. Tomorrow I'm going to have to buckle down and just finish the V362 paper and neglect the NGO paper until next week. However I gotta get this outline done tonight and send it to my professor to show her I'm doing something on it. 

This cold is kicking my butt up and down. Between the fever, shakes, snot and just general yuck-ness I do NOT need this right now. 

However, I have to look at it this way... once I get the V362 paper finished tonight/tomorrow and finish my love extra credit paper I'm almost done until Summer Session 2. 

Ok enough procrastinating (I'm a pro at that, at least I'm a pro at something) I have to get this paper outline done and sent off.